12/20/14

a saturday morning smile

i woke up this morning with so much clarity. so often we worry about what other people think of us, don't we? recently someone i thought i had a good rapport with suddenly stopped following me and im not gonna lie, it's been a buggin' me because of that need to know why ..., ya know? it really stings. i mean, not enough to ruin my life or anything, but it bothered me. and this morning i woke up with a big smile on my face because .... oh, well. keep it movin'. so what that person doesn't care about me or so what that maybe i rub them the wrong way. it's okay. not everyone will like us or think we are cool. all i need to do is feel thankful for the other people i have met who have been a positive light in my life and try my hardest to be a positive light in theirs. i need to stop whining and fretting over the negative. 

anyway, i woke up to the distant sounds of wolfgang blabbing in his crib basically saying, "mama, im awake, come get me." and i walked into eleanor's room and she had one of my old dresses on and was talking to herself in the mirror. i kissed my husband's head and let him sleep and the kids and i came downstairs for our morning breakfast routine. it was like the fog in my head had suddenly cleared. sunny skies in my brain. it's okay. it's okay. it's great. 

today i will embrace normal. i will embrace my real life because it's pretty damn good. the kids are watching this old house on pbs and i'm sitting on the couch looking at pinterest fails and cracking up over how great real life is. we try so hard as humans and sometimes it's just a disaster, but that is what makes it all so genuine and good. genuine. genuine. genuine. and if it's not, leave it alone and keep it movin'. 

this photo i chose for this post is not the best quality and a little crooked, but i adore it. it was from a few days ago when daddy got home from work. he always scoops wolfgang up and they walk around pointing at things and saying, "oooooooooooo" it's wonderful and real and something that should never be taken for granted. 

clarity. 

arick sent me this video the other day and if you watch it you will see how truly great this planet can be. genuine and true. also, it will just make you smile big time. 

lastly, just now eleanor started cracking up and i looked up and wolfgang had climbed on top of the speakers and was just standing there grinning from ear to ear. ahhhh, everything is fine. everything is wonderful. happy saturday. 



4 comments:

  1. So sweet- I understand those feeling well, and it's hard not to take it personal, but honestly I'm quite sure it has less to do with you and more to do with her- blogs, social media, Instagram- they have a way of making you doubt yourself and see others sharing something seemingly so perfect, can be hard. Enjoy your reality this weekend and also know that your sharing is so beautiful- it always lifts me up and brightens my day!

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  2. I know that feeling... someone "letting you go" and not knowing why. It can be so truly hurtful, but I'm glad you woke up with that smile and all that clarity. Good for you. XO

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  3. I recently joined Instagram and discovered your wonderfully curated gallery. I am so glad to have stumbled upon your feed! Listen, you know that old saying, "Familiarity breeds contempt." Yeah. Don't take it to heart. I know it stings but perhaps this person really isn't worth your time in the end. Sometimes you have an affinity with someone and without your realizing it, the same things that drew you together also give rise to jealousy, competitiveness, and all sorts. You have a gorgeous family and home, and most importantly, a really beautiful spirit. No one can take any of those things away from you. Real life is real, right?

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  4. loved reading this post, even though I'm sorry you were hurt by someone like that...dont let it hinder you posting or writing the things that mean the most to you. you have a lovely family and perspective, keep it up and keep smiling :)

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